My father is a sociopath who killed and abused people and animals. No one listened to my observations and because I was so blunt about my observations, my father kept me close by while isolating me from others and needing me to believe him while he pit others against me. He raised me to believe I had a hole in my brain, I'd never be heard and I'd keep his sick secrets forever. I went my whole life caged and abused in many different scenarios because of his message..."No one will hear you". When I escaped I started a vault of lyrics that helped me. I've carried them everywhere with me, and now I share my story through song.
It's a voice I never was allowed to have until I learned not to be silenced by narcissists anymore.
To sing my vault of songs, make albums and sell everything I can to give my boys a beautiful home and start a center for childhood sexual abuse survivors (namely males) to learn about cptsd and how it can stop you from achieving your goals. Give people a place to get support and make music doing so. I sell shirts that share the message of the percentage of males vs females who report childhood sexual abuse.
Mass awareness of narcissism tactics in relationships and family dynamics that allow secrecy and sexual abuse (incest) so I can shine a light on these evil people who hurt others for fun.
Depeche Mode- Enjoy the Silence
Depeche Mode Oceanlab Daniel Gildenlow Prince Arming Van Burren Chvrches Britney Spears Porcupine Tree ... honestly there's too many
I started singing one day and my dad really liked it so he had me sing in his studio. He was a keyboardist for the church and I went to all his practices. But my mom got angry and jealous so I had to stop singing... after that I ended up with person after person who silenced me until I met my producer who taught me to get loud. So now I tell my story in my music.
I have a YouTube channel where I teach all about Narcissism and recovery. I want my music to really talk about narcissists and I want to share the message that even with severe trauma and cptsd you can get through it. You can get recovery. There is hope.
I think everyone is capable of art as long as they have the right balance of "I LOVE making my music" and "I plan to make this either my career or hobby". When people start going oh this will be easy, make my mixtapes and make money. That's not why people make music. Music is so much more than the money, the money is a gift from your fans that you're sharing your message or sounds beautifully.
The narcissistic influencers. You'll notice that often times the musicians that don't keep their bands, that break up easily, that get in lawsuits, that do ridiculously dangerous illegal shit on stage... they're just so toxic. The music scene gets really toxic, and that's why I am cut throat about it. I can sniff out a Narcissist a mile away and I do not care what they think or do about it. When I was in the modeling industry and music videos I met the worst kinds of people. It taught me not to be so naive.
Absolutely. If an artist is passionate about their music I support them as looking as they're not influencing toxic behavior.
Honesty, Humility, willingness to learn, compassion and a drive to help others. As far as heard by others, I have no idea. A lot of people want trash. So I can't answer for everyone.
How the hell would I know what you've heard of?