"You are an idiot, loser, and will never be anything more than garbage just like your mother." Along with physical and emotional abuse, my soul became cripple and my mind fractured. I found solace in using drugs, drinking, and making terrible decisions as many different people. I played guitar and wrote songs to heal the dissociated individual I am. It has been a long journey and I have written songs about love I have always wanted and desired. I am writing currently on the things I have experienced in the many personalities I am. Music is what is saving me and I wish to share with whoever wants to listen.
Music is the calm from the noise in my mind. I hope it does the same for someone else. I draw inspiration for the people, life and history around me. I try to create authentic music for the misunderstood mind.
My musical dream is to continue create and keep the dopamine feeling going while writing and playing.
Teach the hurting in crisis how to heal so they can heal others.
Necesito Una Compañera-Los Bukis
Oasis, Nirvana, Eric Clapton, Metallica, Third Day, Steve Vai, Joe Satriani, for King and Country, Garth Brooks, The Calling, The Goo Goo Dolls
I have complex PTSD and knowing each day can get better as I continue to write about stories near and dear to me inspires me.
Even in darkness beauty can be created.
Terrified