Sadly the one thing that has happened that has probably defined most of my life was the fact that when I was only 4 I was the only witness to see my brother and 2 sisters struck and killed right before my eyes by a drunk driver. I say defined most of my life cause it has in some way affected almost everything in my life including relationships with friends, family and lovers; affected my mental health and at times influenced substance abuse in my past; has helped push myself into alcoholism and has even pushed me into at least one suicide attempt that I can remeber. It took a better part of my life, approximately 30 years, to properly come to terms with and deal with the issues that the sight of that trauma left in me. But there is also much of me that I've realized is stronger and better for having lived through that. My love of each moment as it's your last, which coincidentally was also strengthened by the fact I suffered a cardiac arrest 4 years ago, after which I began to take my music from more of a passing hobby to a full time passion. My caring and compassion for for others, including strangers, I think were also made deeper and stronger by the loss of my siblings. I developed a strong will to try everything life has to offer, which once again I feel was strengthened by my cardiac arrest. (Which F.Y.I. like I did I'm sure most of you think that it's the same as a heart attack. Difference is cardiac arrest just means heart stopped for whatever reason, mine was pneumonia. Heart attack is a stress on the heart usually caused by a blockage in the blood vessels but the heart doesn't necessarily have to stop.) But there is always so much more then can be put in these about me, so if you really want to know then you'll ask. And I'll most likely tell.
For the most part music is a my way of stepping back from the world as it is into whatever world I chose to depending on the music I chose to listen to. Whether it's just remembering a distant time in my past, a long lost friend or family member, it can also be the music I create to tell a story or express the feelings that I can not put into words. Music is how I've always related to this world and probably always will. It has always given me an emotional outlet to dump whatever heartache or even joyful event that has transpired in my life. It's my voice when words alone are never enough.
To simply write the music that I want to write and feel the need to write. And to have my music available to anybody that may find it helpful for whatever reason they need it in their life at that particular time. I don't really care if I make millions, or if millions listen to it. First and foremost I simply want my music help myself when I need it and then help others as it helped me. And if I get paid? Well I'm a musician not stupid, so of course I'll take the money but not gonna hold my breath for it lol.
There is entirely too many things wrong in this world to simply pick one. Which when asked, "What would you start with?" you can never be sure of the next thing to change is really gonna happen so that may be the only thing you happen to change so it had better be the best. But if I absolutely had to pick I guess simply to make everyone care about everyone including strangers around the world as equally as they would care for a parent, or wife/husband or whoever. Because if everyone cared equally for everyone then I think that would solve all sorts of problems at once from violence to hunger.
American Pie, I remember I was about 5 sitting in the floor in the early hours before the sun came up. I was playing with all my hot wheels toys while my dad was getting ready for work while his old vinyl record player played that song in the background.
There are so many, I would have to say my favorite guitarist would definitely be S.R.V.; if you have to ask then I doubt you are really a musician I'd want anything to do with lol, jk. But my favorite band? That would be very difficult cause I love so many more bands then single musicians but probably I would have to say either Metallica or Aerosmith cause I have so many of their songs that I can relate to memories in my past.
Myself, my own experiences, my own feelings is really the only thing that can get me the motivation/inspiration to create music or lyrics.
I never write with a message per se to people. I simply write what I feel I need to say to myself and hope I'm not alone in this world saying it.
It always feels nice for people to appreciate my playing, or vocals whether it's a cover or original. But it's also something I could live without if I had to. If I was gonna have to play in front of an audience often though then someone had better start paying me lol.
Feeling like a practice session, whether it's by myself or in a jam group/band, is or was just a waste of time and nothing was accomplished, gained or learned.
Larger checkbook sadly, lol. Honestly? Probably the ability to relate to anyone in one way or another. A truthfulness to their lyrics. The ability to not just perform for others but also entertain and enthrall others.